Narcissistic Supply

Need

Narcissistic supply is something they need. They need it in the same way that a smoker needs cigarettes. In fact, if Susan is anything to go by, she needs it like we all need Oxygen.

Attention seeking

Narcissistic supply is quite simply “attention seeking”. It is the exact same kind of attention seeking a child may engage in.

She just will not leave me alone.

Bored easily

Personally, I love my own company. I crave and enjoy any alone-time I can get. My wife does not like her own company. She needs to be engaged with somebody at all times. She craves attention. When she is not blathering for hours on end into her phone to somebody she’s following me around the house antagonizing me about absolutely anything.

Tactics

She picks fights with me. She picks arguments with Emma. She finds fault with things… any things. She phones me to pick arguments with me. She drives me absolutely nuts. And like I said, she will not leave me alone. She calls me loudly across the house while Emma is sleeping. She will start vacuum cleaning at 10:00pm at night. It is all designed to get a reaction of of me, i.e. to get her fix of narcissistic supply.

No peace

All I ever wanted was peace and quiet and to live peacefully together. Her insatiable, relentless, bottomless void need for attention will never permit this. I will never get peace and quiet or normality because of her endless need for narcissistic supply.

She is like a Duracell Bunny plugged into a nuclear power plant.

Disorder

This is a fundamental part of the disorder. This is a fundamental part of why my relationship with my wife is so difficult. The “lack of empathy” plays into it too. She does not recognize my boundaries at all. She does not recognize when I’m tired. She does not recognize when I just need to be left alone. She does not recognize when she’s torturing me and when enough is enough.