Thief

Cash is king!

Going back quite a few years to before contactless payment was a thing. I noticed that I seemed to be spending far more than I would have expected.

I decided to keep track of all my spending, and all the cash that entered and exited my wallet ( #fawn-response ) .

I dared not get caught at this treacherous deed, so once again, I went to daft levels, but I enjoy this kind of thing so anyway, I built a secret bespoke app for my specific purposes ( #fawn-response #codependency ) .

The result was shocking and confusing. The discrepancy between my spending and the amount of cash in my wallet was hundreds each month ( #entitlement #lack-of-empathy ) .

The final nail came when my siblings and I pooled together to contribute a few hundred towards a new car for our Mum. I was caretaker for all the donations. That turned out to be a bad choice because Susan actually stole most of it ( #manipulation #malign ) . I did nothing about it ( #fawn-response #codependency ) . I replaced the money myself ( #fawn-response #codependency ) . I said nothing about it ( #fawn-response ) . The denial, rage and return accusations would be salt in the wound.

Now I never carry cash. Now I know what rape feels like ( #trauma-bond ) .